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My name is Stella.
Seventeen candles on the 24th December '10. I ♥ cMusic, ROBERT PATTINSON, and my family friends.

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at 6:46 AM

These few days... i had been reading on some really inspirating books...
Somehow,i stumble upon them because.... i was feeling a lil.. *poked* by some1.

There are some things that happened to me today...
FIRST... as i was e first for both oral.. so... i had to stay to complete them..
After i completed and went back to class... it was empty...
So, i went to search of my oral book, in need for improvment..
And settled a while... i was thinking.. hey it look so empty, gives me a lonely feeling, but it is a good environment to study..
And suddenly 3 guys came in...
one commented *That one loner la*
I knew it was a verbal abuse... but i wasn't really that angry at what was being commented...
I was taking it as a feedback... like hey... maybe i need to go to somewhere else that has more ppl... and i was thinking... where have they gone to?
Then... i decided that... shortly i went to e library.
And i went to find a sit... there are few of them inside...
so i wanted to focus on building up my oral... as i didnt do well... and then i was feeling...weird.
Someone is giving out the aura... someone is sensing i am alone... Immediately i knew who...
So i switched to another location... which made me feel more welcomed...and i stayed till they came.
They actually didn't knew what had happened... they can't see it from my expression of course..
While i was telling them somethings which is really interesting and joyous things that has happened for the past few days...
One was listening quite patiently...
The other only listened until i finished talking and immediately change the topic, turn to e other person and talk to her what she wants to say...
And thats what i called.. insincere listening...
I texted my bestie...
she replied one... and then perhaps she was busy...

oh yeah... i remembered... my bestie actually... confessed to me about a lie..
I was hurt at first, of course. But eventually i felt that it was insignificant to feel hurt..
I dont allow such things to destroy such a great friendship... and i forgave her...
I feel a lil stuck when she doesnt reply my msg..
But she would call me and tell me why... she wouldnt ignore me and forget it..like how the others do... for that... i really appreciate it with my heart..

And i thought about all these things...
I was thinking that... hey i'm not that lonely the moment i saw someone only had a dog for companion...
no family, friends, relatives...
But i have.
The world simply dont allow me to be lonely or alone.. because there are so many creatures living around us..

I really enjoyed the moments with my family now! and of course. i celebrate my lil improvement deep in my heart. i feel happy of my success, i feel happy that i overcame things which i feared a lot last time.

There's this funny thing that happened... i was asked to buy KFC....
Then when i was ordering... the crew suddenly say, hEy, that guy wants your no. !
I was like. huh? who? lol then she point to a guy, working as KFC crew cleaning some things, back facing me.
and i was like... errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr????!?!?!?!?
i'm here to buy KFC... lol
okay.... then i didnt want to give. lol
*rejected* :DDDD
This proves to me so much! The no. of people around me don't matter..
It not about how long i spent being with the person..
Its e sincerity... understanding...
I really cannot stand it when ppl don't understand you...
It simply.. sucks!

I feel blessed, because im able to find sources to redeem myself from all the pain!
I'm on my way, learning to be strong. and i believe one day i will make myself a better person!